Yay for being back on track!

Well it worked! I managed to get back on track - exercised my butt off, drank heaps of water and tracked religiously and ... I lost 3.8kgs this week!!! No that's not a typo - I really do mean 3.8 kilos! How awesome is that??? Pretty damn amazing I think if I do say so myself lol.
Only 1.7 to go to get to -30kg now so it's finally looking achievable again. Worked out last night I'd had 4 gains in 4 weeks (ouch) but lost all that bar 200g last night so all is good.
It's great to be back on track and in the zone again. Here's hoping I can stay there for a while at least this time lol.
Ok, better go off to work I guess - yay Friday!
Stay safe out there people,
Cyndi xoxo

Day one - AGAIN

Right, here we go again. I have mucked around enough. Put on enough weight. Wasted enough money. This year has been a bit of a non event as far as weight loss goes so far but all that is about to change. As of this morning the past is in the past where it belongs and I'm moving onwards and downwards! I WILL DO THIS! YOU JUST WATCH ME!

Explaining the photos!

OMG I am so not blog literate! Took me forever to upload those photos earlier and even then they are not how I want them! I wanted the fattest ones first then moving down to more recent but um ... didn't work and I wanted captions underneath them but nope that not working either! Anyway, not sure if you can see any difference in them or not but the bottom two are when I first started in September 09, the next two in Oct 09 after losing 10kg and then the last two in Dec after losing 20kg. Still waiting to be able to take 30kg ones!
Have been really struggling for a while now and just thought maybe posting some photos would remind me of how far I have come and encourage me to keep going. Watch this space!

Photos

Trying to upload some photos!

Where does time go???

Mmm where does that time go??? It's been ages since I last wrote in here! Well I'd like to say that things have been going really well and that I'm on target to my 40kg by my 40th but ... unfortunately that wouldn't be quite true :-( The sad reality is that I'm still struggling to get to the 30kg mark and since Xmas have lost and gained the same 3 kg countless times. I've gotten within a couple of hundred grams a couple of times and then been 3 kg+ away at others. I guess on a positive note I am still hanging in there and have not given up entirely but boy am I sick of the yoyo effect! No-one to blame but myself - just can't seem to get my head in the game anymore.
Just been down to the local produce shop and got me lots of yummy fruit for the week so hopefully can turn things around again before WI day on Thurs cos the weekend certainly hasn't been great so far!
Watch this space - I'll try to remember to blog more often ... yeah, yeah I know - it's been said before lol.
Til next time,
Cyns xoxo

Monday already!

Well, I've managed to stick to the plan for the past 3 days so that in itself is a minor miracle! Na, actually lets be honest - it's a totally MAJOR miracle lol. I'm not feeling overly enthused or inspired but at least I'm doing it! No exercise yet but I have had my 3 year old god daughter staying all weekend so been a little difficult there BUT I am going to go to an aqua aerobics class shortly and will go for a walk with my wonderfully supportive WW buddies this afternoon. Then the plan is aqua on both Tues and Thurs morn (with WW buddies). Last Thurs I was ready to throw the towel in and these two wonderful ladies somehow managed to convince me not to give up and even coerced me into planning some exercise that they'll join me in during the week. Amazing support - I am so so lucky!
Anyway, it's been a very lazy day so far, so time to change that and go get active!
Catch you all later :-)

Oh how time flies!

I had intended to be more regular at posting on here but so far that hasn't quite happened - I tend to be a little sporadic (to say the least) lol.
Well I'm still hanging in there with WW but am struggling big time (again). I just can't seem to get my head in the right space anymore. I worked out earlier that so far this year I have only lost 3.6kgs. Ok, so I hear some of you saying "well it's better than gaining them" and I agree BUT when you consider that in the 3 months prior I lost around 25kg it's really quite pathetic! I need to somehow get my head back in the game but it doesn't seem to quite work just by saying it unfortunately.
BUT on a good note, today has been a great day foodwise, it's now 8.30pm and I still have 9.5 points to play with so supper, here I come! I think I'll have a caramel latte made with milk (4.5) and an apple (1) so can save the other 4 points. Pity I don't have an hot cross buns or chocolate (or maybe just as well lol)!
I'm going to try really hard to make this whole week a good one and have a good loss on Thursday. Hopefully that'll spur me on for the next week. Sounds good in theory anyway - lets just hope I can put it into practice!
Will try to post more often too :-)

Day 2 of back on track

and all is well so far! Got through yesterday with points to spare. Never quite achieved any exercise but never mind! Today I have! Just been for a walk and boy do I feel buggered now lol. On track food wise and was going to make a quiche for tea but now I've decided to finish the fish chowder I made at lunchtime. Still well within my points so unless something goes drastically wrong in the next few hours it looks like today will be another successful day. I've even managed to drink lots of water! Have still got some points remaining after dinner so there is room for supper if I want it later. Not feeling the greatest or the most positive but at least I'm on track again and hoping that the good feelings will soon follow lol. Right, off to heat up the chowder. Have a good night everyone. I think I'm just gonna have a quiet one and hope there's something worth watching on the box. TNT :-)

I'm back in the game.

Well so far, so good this morning. I have woken up still feeling positive and ready to move forwards!
Had a yummy breakfast of WW muesli and yoghurt and have planned out the day's menu with 3 points to spare.
I have drunk more water than I probably did the whole past week already and been considering what exercise I might do today and when. Ok I haven't actually done it yet but trust me, even thinking about it is a big improvement lol!
Well, here's to the beginning of me crawling my way back out of this hole and reaching -30kg and beyond!
Hope everyone is having a great day,
Cyns xoxo

Ok. I went, I put on and now I'm moving on!

A gain of 1.7 which was bad but not as bad as I expected believe it or not. I was brave enough to say out loud in the meeting that I am really struggling and somehow it really seemed to help and make me want to get back on track again. Tonight I am going to sit down and at least plan out my menu for tomorrow. One day at a time!

Well I am going to go to WW tonight

even though I really don't want to go! But I don't want to die either and when it comes down to it that's the bottom line ay and the reason I started this. I wonder how much weight it is physically possible to put on in 7 days? I guess I'll be finding out tonight! I have no idea how I'm going to get my head back in the right space but am going to the meeting and hoping like hell something will click into place. Wish me luck ...

I've lost it and I don't know where to find it!

I can't get back into the swing of things at all and instead of getting back on track Monday morning as I told myself (and you) that I would, I've gone even further off track. For the first time since I started this journey I'm at the point where I don't know how much longer I'm gonna be able to keep hanging in there and I'm scared! I just seem to have lost all motivation for everything at the moment and I'm unsure how to get it back. I think maybe I'm a bit depressed again (although I'm taking my happy pills and have been for quite some time now). I know in theory all the things I could and should be doing to make myself feel better but I just don't have the energy :-( A diet consisting of constant bad food choices, no exercise and not even drinking much water lately will NOT be helping things either I know). But, how to get off this downward merry go round and find my mojo again? That is the question. If only I could figure out the answer!

Well, last time I posted I was excited to be almost at -20kg.
Am pleased to report that that has long since gone for good and now I'm heading towards -30kg. The week before last I was only 300gms from there but after a huge unexpected gain last week I've unfortunately slid back in the other direction (temporarily I might add)!
Since last posting there's been lots going on in my life including my Dad being diagnosed with cancer which sent me into a spin for a bit. (I lost my Mum to cancer in 2000 and while Dad's is supposedly not terminal it still brought up a whole heap of stuff for me that I thought was long since dealt with). Add to that a teenage son who's been unstable and unsettled and me starting a new job - which 8 weeks in I'm really not liking all that much, life has been a little stressful at times shall we say!
Anyway, somehow, despite all this I have managed to stay reasonably focused on the whole weight loss thing and most of the time the scales have been heading in the right direction.
Since my gain last week I have gone a little (actually lots to be honest) off the rails. I wasn't expecting a gain and didn't feel it was deserved which sent me off into a spin where I just seemed to be thinking "F**K it! What's the point?" So after a terrible few days that will probably result in another (but this time oh so deserved) gain, I have decided that once again it is time to pick myself up and move on!
Starting tomorrow (I would say right now but I already have the roast pork with crackling in the oven for dinner and god damn I'm gonna enjoy it)! So tomorrow morning from the moment my eyes are open the new and improved attitude is in place and all systems are go again!
My initial goal was 150kg which at the start was 39.7 kg away. It's now only 11.2 (if my maths is right) anyway it's looking like a definitely do-able thing. Add another 300g to that and I'll have lost 40kg and I WILL be there by my 40th which is in July.
Look out world here I come!
Ok well I wont bore you all to tears and will leave it there as I head off to do some much overdue housework.
Take care everyone. TNT,
Cyndi xoxo

I'm back!!!

Just bought a new computer and yay I can get into my blog again!!! Something must have been disabled on my old computer (I'm blaming the teen)! Woo hoo way cool! Okay no time to write lots now - lots of playing with new toy to be done lol BUT I will update soon and regularly I promise!