Back in the game

Bit the bullet and went to WI tonight and was pleasantly surprised - lost .9 so am pleased with that! Must admit though I did hunt around for the lightest clothes I had (while still remaining decent) before going lol. I know, I know it's only cheating myself BUT I so know if I'd put on again I could so easily have spun right back into that bad space again!
At the end of each meeting our leader gets us to tell the person next to us the one thing we're going to do to help with our weight loss this week and I told Andrea and Jessica I was going to exercise 5 (yes you read that right) 5x this week! So the plan is;

Friday - early morning walk
Saturday - same again
Sunday - DAY OF REST!
Monday - evening swim
Tuesday - morning aqua aerobics
Wednesday - maybe I will, maybe I wont lol
Thursday - morning aqua aerobics

That combined with sticking within my points is going to take me over and beyond the - 15kg mark at next weeks WI. As it stands tonight I only have 300g until I get there so wish me luck! TNT
C xoxo

Struggling (again)

Gosh just read last post and was sounding so positive - where did that go and how do I find it again??? Then I had 700g to go to reach 15kg - now - hmmm ... put on 600 last week so then I had 1.5 to get to -15kg, now with WI looming tomorrow night I'm pretty sure I'm heading in the wrong direction again!
So far today has been a good one points wise but the rest of the week has been pretty much crap!
Was feeling gutted after my gain on Thurs night and not quite sure why as I had been good and even done more exercise than usual. Next morning I woke up with my period and figured that explained it so all good so far.
Had bought myself some naughty treats after weigh in with the intention of getting back on track Fri but couldn't eat all I'd bought so it was still hanging around Fri (there goes that day), Sat was pretty good I think, Sun wasn't too bad either, Mon started off well and then fell apart once I got home from work (didn't even track so God only knows what I ate exactly), yesterday I didn't track at all so obviously that wasn't great either, and today so far so good.
Also no exercise since last Thurs aqua class and bugger all water some days so I'm thinking tomorrow nights results are not going to be great :-( Usually I track everything, drink at least 3 pump bottles of water and exercise a minimum of twice a week).
Am really pissed off with myself but it's all a bit late for that isn't it! I noticed last month at TTOTM I was a bit the same (or am I just using it as an excuse)??? Have been feeling really blah the past week though - fat, bloated, pimply, hair greasy, lethargic, moody, tearful ... oh the joys of being a woman huh.
Anyway enough of this self pity bull*#@t - time to sort it out and get it together again. I have discovered (funnily enough) that sometimes just writing it all down and getting it out there actually does help! Am feeling better about things already! I so need to write in here a lot more often than I do. Also posted on WW message boards this morning too - very supportive bunch of people there!
Am enjoying a lovely point friendly treat of a punnet of strawberries while I type this. Honestly with food this delicious who needs all that other fattening rubbish??? Also had really nice lunch of prawn, sweet chilli and rice wraps and was only 3 1/2 points mmm mmm.
Ok going to go do some paper work now and then think I will put on the new walking shoes and get out in the fresh air for a bit (and do some exercise at the same time lol) TNT (which will be sooner rather than later)!

Going strong...

Well I've been a bit slack with the posting lately sorry but at least been good in other areas! Would be so easy to spend half my life on the computer if I wasn't careful lol.
Had another good way in this week with a loss of 1.6 taking my grand total to -14.3. Hoping to get to my -15kg mark next week. Current goal is to get to -20kg by Christmas although I realize I may be being a little optimistic here! Will be very happy if I reach my 10% by then though which means I will have had to have lost 19kg in total so 4.7 to go (if my maths is correct lol).
Am really starting to notice a difference now - heaps more energy, things have just become easier eg stairs, getting up off the floor etc, the nana naps happen less often, my overall mood is much better, I'm sleeping better, less headaches .... the list goes on! Amazing after such a small portion of what I have yet to lose. I can only imagine how fantastic I'm gonna feel in the end!
I tried on a top last night that wouldn't go anywhere near me when I bought it so has never been worn. I loved it so much though I couldn't bear to part with it so it's sat in my wardrobe for nearly 3 years with the tags still attached just waiting for me to get my act together! Anyway ... I can do it up now!!! The buttons actually meet!!! It's still a bit fitting for me to actually feel comfortable wearing it but I can see me in it soon now!
Anyway, must go and finish the dreaded housework and then get stuck into some paperwork for work. Oh joy! Trying to get everything up to date before the Xmas rush though (and before I have three weeks off - YEEHAH).
Hope you're all well and that those of you who are on this weight loss journey with me are having lots of successes too. TNT
Cyndi xoxo

Oh my freakn God !!!!

I lost 4.5kg this week! I don't quite know how and still can't quite believe it - even though I made the weigher check it not twice, but three times lol. So I lost the 2.3 I gained last week and then some! Grand total is now -12.9 WOO HOO! Has made me feel so motivated again now just exactly what I needed!
Been a long day and not feeling the greatest with a chest infection (coughing kept me awake lots during the night) so think I'll take myself off to bed now. Will try to post again tomorrow> Hope you're all well. TNT xoxo

A good day yesterday and aiming for another today...

Well I have really been struggling lately and it showed on the scales Thurs with a whopping great gain of 2.3! Even after that I struggled for a couple of days but finally had a good day points wise yesterday so hoping maybe I'm back on track. I'm certainly feeling a lot more positive today! Wow it's scary when the motivation suddenly just goes. It's like one day I'm fine and the next it's all downhill and feeling like I can't get back on track. Scary stuff. But ... am still hanging in there and still planning on staying there! Not expecting much of a loss this week - but some will be better than none and certainly better than a gain but hoping by the following week it will have evened out again and I'll be back under that dreaded 10kg!
Started off as a beautiful sunny day here today but now it's clouding over and feels like the temperature is dropping! Hope everyone has a great day. TNT xoxo

AAAHHHH!

That's the sound of me screaming at myself! This week has been terrible. I thought I could make amends by being really strict and all that's happened is I have been ok during the day then completely lost it once I've been home. Two huge binges in two days and no way in hell I wont gain at weigh in tomorrow night. I don't even want to go! What happened to the positive mind set I was talking about just a few short days ago???
I'm really scared as I know this is my old pattern coming back to haunt me again. I can lose 10kg easily then just lose the plot. Was so determined NOT to do that this time but it seems almost out of my control. HELP!!!

well so much for staying on track...

I fell off the rails completely with two nights of takeaways and lots and lots of alcohol! Had an awesome weekend if you don't count the food though lol. Oh well picked myself up, brushed myself off and back on track today. Going to be VERY strict over next few days until weigh in to see if I can hopefully prevent a gain or if not @ least minimize it! The real difference for me this time is my mindset I think - previously I would have thought "oh well that's it I've blown it now..." and that would have been it. But NO MORE!!! Onwards and downwards lol. TNT xoxo