Monday already!

Well, I've managed to stick to the plan for the past 3 days so that in itself is a minor miracle! Na, actually lets be honest - it's a totally MAJOR miracle lol. I'm not feeling overly enthused or inspired but at least I'm doing it! No exercise yet but I have had my 3 year old god daughter staying all weekend so been a little difficult there BUT I am going to go to an aqua aerobics class shortly and will go for a walk with my wonderfully supportive WW buddies this afternoon. Then the plan is aqua on both Tues and Thurs morn (with WW buddies). Last Thurs I was ready to throw the towel in and these two wonderful ladies somehow managed to convince me not to give up and even coerced me into planning some exercise that they'll join me in during the week. Amazing support - I am so so lucky!
Anyway, it's been a very lazy day so far, so time to change that and go get active!
Catch you all later :-)

Oh how time flies!

I had intended to be more regular at posting on here but so far that hasn't quite happened - I tend to be a little sporadic (to say the least) lol.
Well I'm still hanging in there with WW but am struggling big time (again). I just can't seem to get my head in the right space anymore. I worked out earlier that so far this year I have only lost 3.6kgs. Ok, so I hear some of you saying "well it's better than gaining them" and I agree BUT when you consider that in the 3 months prior I lost around 25kg it's really quite pathetic! I need to somehow get my head back in the game but it doesn't seem to quite work just by saying it unfortunately.
BUT on a good note, today has been a great day foodwise, it's now 8.30pm and I still have 9.5 points to play with so supper, here I come! I think I'll have a caramel latte made with milk (4.5) and an apple (1) so can save the other 4 points. Pity I don't have an hot cross buns or chocolate (or maybe just as well lol)!
I'm going to try really hard to make this whole week a good one and have a good loss on Thursday. Hopefully that'll spur me on for the next week. Sounds good in theory anyway - lets just hope I can put it into practice!
Will try to post more often too :-)

Day 2 of back on track

and all is well so far! Got through yesterday with points to spare. Never quite achieved any exercise but never mind! Today I have! Just been for a walk and boy do I feel buggered now lol. On track food wise and was going to make a quiche for tea but now I've decided to finish the fish chowder I made at lunchtime. Still well within my points so unless something goes drastically wrong in the next few hours it looks like today will be another successful day. I've even managed to drink lots of water! Have still got some points remaining after dinner so there is room for supper if I want it later. Not feeling the greatest or the most positive but at least I'm on track again and hoping that the good feelings will soon follow lol. Right, off to heat up the chowder. Have a good night everyone. I think I'm just gonna have a quiet one and hope there's something worth watching on the box. TNT :-)

I'm back in the game.

Well so far, so good this morning. I have woken up still feeling positive and ready to move forwards!
Had a yummy breakfast of WW muesli and yoghurt and have planned out the day's menu with 3 points to spare.
I have drunk more water than I probably did the whole past week already and been considering what exercise I might do today and when. Ok I haven't actually done it yet but trust me, even thinking about it is a big improvement lol!
Well, here's to the beginning of me crawling my way back out of this hole and reaching -30kg and beyond!
Hope everyone is having a great day,
Cyns xoxo

Ok. I went, I put on and now I'm moving on!

A gain of 1.7 which was bad but not as bad as I expected believe it or not. I was brave enough to say out loud in the meeting that I am really struggling and somehow it really seemed to help and make me want to get back on track again. Tonight I am going to sit down and at least plan out my menu for tomorrow. One day at a time!

Well I am going to go to WW tonight

even though I really don't want to go! But I don't want to die either and when it comes down to it that's the bottom line ay and the reason I started this. I wonder how much weight it is physically possible to put on in 7 days? I guess I'll be finding out tonight! I have no idea how I'm going to get my head back in the right space but am going to the meeting and hoping like hell something will click into place. Wish me luck ...

I've lost it and I don't know where to find it!

I can't get back into the swing of things at all and instead of getting back on track Monday morning as I told myself (and you) that I would, I've gone even further off track. For the first time since I started this journey I'm at the point where I don't know how much longer I'm gonna be able to keep hanging in there and I'm scared! I just seem to have lost all motivation for everything at the moment and I'm unsure how to get it back. I think maybe I'm a bit depressed again (although I'm taking my happy pills and have been for quite some time now). I know in theory all the things I could and should be doing to make myself feel better but I just don't have the energy :-( A diet consisting of constant bad food choices, no exercise and not even drinking much water lately will NOT be helping things either I know). But, how to get off this downward merry go round and find my mojo again? That is the question. If only I could figure out the answer!